Mustang Matthew

Well the day has arrived! Other parents look forward to it with anticipation but I have been dreading it....Matthew passed his driving test and he officially has his drivers license! Today was his first day driving to seminary and school ALONE....surprisingly a very emotional one for me. You think that I would be ecstatic, no more waking up at 6am to take him to seminary, no more carting him around to his many activities. But I am not ecstatic:( I know that I will still be waking up to see him off (we will see how long it lasts) to send him off to school with a prayer and a "I love you" , I enjoy our mornings together when it is just him and I. But I will miss the time that we have together in the car, learning about his day, hearing the latest news and laughing together...sometimes that is the only time we have to do that! My boy is growing up and this is such a huge leap into complete independence for him!

I was such a sap this morning. After saying a prayer this morning with him (it was especially long) and walking with him outside and giving him my last minute counsel and a step by step overview of his path today from home to seminary, seminary to school and then home again.....like he doesn't know the way or something! I gave him an extra long hug, yelled out an "I love you!" and watched him as he pulled out and continued to watch until he turned off of our street, acting as though I was saying goodbye forever...a tear rolled down my cheek. I miss him already! You better believe it that I will be saying alot of prayers today and I will have my cell phone on me at all times. It is really hard to let go and send them out there in the cruel world and to the cruel world of drivers, which some of them I refer to as 'idiots". Sometimes it is very hard being a parent.....